Time The Healer

Last week I decided in my infinite wisdom to leave my phone on the train.  I had left a phone on a bus 3 days earlier, that was recovered.  Maybe I was testing the honesty of Londoners.  I do remember not being gracious about the fact that the person had picked up the phone , not handed it in to driver (I know who does that). Then after 3 hours and many texts finally answering the phone and a 30 minute journey £10 later I was reunited with my phone.  

This time it is lost I have to accept that and move on.  Yes I had been using it as my notepad, it contained over 100 poems and my other random thoughts.  Unfortunately at least 20 were not published anywhere, and no I didn’t backup and no I don’t have a copy.   Hindsight that wonderful thing after the event ....

Posted fb 25/05/13

#113 Time The Healer

How quickly we forget

Last week I was in turmoil

Over the loss of my phone

Now I sit here without

Without feeling alone

What a difference time makes

It does really heal

Whether it is a numbness

Or an inability to feel

I have moved on

It is all just a vague memory

At the time I thought it was awful

Such a catastrophe.

I hope there have been lessons learned

New pages have been turned

I now look for the reason

I feel that somehow I have got off lightly

That brings an ironic smile to my face

These things we value

Are so easily replaced

Although when loss

We make all that fuss

Now I sit and reason

That I have enough

We Have Come a Long Way

Things we take for granted, we take the fact that we are here for granted,  it all could have been so very different.


posted fb 24/05/13

#110 We Are The Survivors

I am a survivor

let me tell you why

It was all stacked against me

I had to swim to be free

With no eyes I couldn’t see

I am here to proclaim

I am here today

I am the modern miracle

You are the same

We take for granted

Not realising

How difficult it is

To survive with those chances

Yet every time it gets difficult

We are ready to throw the towel in

I never swam all this way

To simply sink and give in

So if you ever question your existence

I am here to say you have been persistent

You are part of the resistance

Every challenge is a gift

Live in the present

Don’t focus on the past

Remember how bleak it all was

In the start

I don't like Travelling

I get so stressed by flying.  I like to do everything by the book.  The first thing I do is turn up extra early.  My biggest fear is being left.



Posted fb 23/05/13

#111 A fine Bottle of Beaujolais

I am like a bottle of expensive wine

I don’t travel well

I like the idea of travelling

As soon as the day arrives

I realise this is my personal hell

First you have to check in

There are codes to remember

You’ve got to get it right

Get it wrong

There is no boarding this flight

Why do planes leave at such ridiculous times?

Some too early, some late at night

Whatever time there always is a long wait

First at the main terminal

Then at the gate

Which is always a long walk away

If I wanted to walk all this way

I would have not booked the plane

Somehow mysteriously we are in our seats

Now the wait while the cabin crew

Carry out all their safety checks, complete

I don’t mind take it off

With so much praying I figure we’ll be alright

The higher we fly the better I feel

Sometimes there is a little turbulence

Then we start to descend

Now I am excited

I can no longer pretend

I step off to foreign land

With my passport and camera in hand

Ready for an adventure

An adventure in a foreign land

We Are The Survivors

Every now and then we need a little inspiration.   So here it is

#110 We The Survivors

I am a survivor

let me tell you why

It was all stacked against me

I had to swim to be free

With no eyes I couldn’t see

I am here to proclaim

I am here today

I am the modern miracle

You are the same

We take for granted

Not realising

How difficult it is

To survive with those chances

Yet every time it gets difficult

We are ready to throw the towel in

I never swam all this way

To simply sink and give in

So if you ever question your existence

I am here to say you have been persistent

You are part of the resistance

Every challenge is a gift

Live in the present

Don’t focus on the past

Remember how bleak it all was

In the start

Demons in The Cupboard

We all have them, they live in the cupboard or so we like to think.  one day when you least expect it they will come out dancing and singing.  So be free rid yourself of you demons release them now.



Posted fb 21/05/13

#109 Demons in the Cupboard

I have to exercise my demons

They need to come out

there are skeletons in the cupboard they want to shake and shout

I have no say in this

The truth will, will out

Whatever you have done in this life

At some point will come out

I am not keeping these secrets anymore

I can't take all this stress

It is building up inside of me

I need to confess

They normally say 'Mum's the word'

This time she doesn't know best

1

I have had enough of scheemers

There are so many people around that I know who are always looking for a way to make a quick buck.  Or are always trying to pull the wool over your eyes.  I say fine get on with it, life is too short.   

Posted fb 21/05/13

#108 I am Not A Schemer

I don't do schemers

I reside with the dreamers

I don't do quick bucks

I don't take those chances I don't have that luck

I don't do double dealing

To this day I can't see what is so appealing

I don't do slight of hand

Day or night " I am there for you man "

I don't make fake promises

Of which I cannot keep

I got to bed shut eye

You on the other hand find it hard to sleep.

Relationships gone wrong

Relationships gone wrong.  Who to blame.  Not me!

posted fb 17/05/13

#105 Put Things Straight

I am not saying you owe me

But you need to put things straight

I was your girlfriend

You treated me like your mate

You seem to think it doesn't matter

Trust me I can see the pattern

You need to make amends before it is too late

I am saying this not as an ex .

I am telling you as a friend

You need to beg forgiveness

Pray for recompense

You came into my life

Rode rough shot

Now you are the one

Burning in flames

Who knew hell was so hot !

Being Forced to Bleach

Unconventional Beauty within the Black Community. I am considered to be an unconventional beauty, within most Black African Caribbean communities and in the Asian community. There is the leaning towards the lighter skinned women. If you fall outside of the conventional scale of shades you are considered less attractive less desirable, less employable, therefore in some cases ending in poverty.

That's why in so many of these communities the pressure is to bleach your skin to create a more acceptable hue. How sad. how disturbing how worrying. I fortunately live in a society where my complexion is just judged by my family and friends and have no real baring in regards to my employability and then the money I may potentially earn (Well I don't think it does.....)

posted fb 18/05/13

#106 Black Beauty Denied

He said I was beautiful

Yet he didn't know why

This beauty he felt he had to deny

With my dark black skin

This attraction for him was a sin

His programming had him confused

All his doctrine said I wouldn't do

Yet he had to admit

I was beautiful

He didn't understand why

I was the exception to the rule

Beauty is not normally found in this darken hue

Revenge for Abuse, Why Not?

Writing from a child's perspective is easy to do. Some of us never grow up. I made every line have six words on them it was challenging but fun. Enjoy

Posted fb 19/05/13

#107 Revenge

Such a gentleman such a charmer

Turns out you were a harmer

Wicked taker of  our children's souls

Pastime not just for the old

Complaints chalk down to childish moans

Now shy where was once bold

Revenge a dish best served cold

A Rose is Still a Rose?

Posted fb 02/02/13

#1 The Rose

The Rose

There was a rose, that was left to grow by itself.

The rose said it was alright.

But it was clear to see, that this was not so.

As there was a thorn on it's side.

Dedication for My Mother

Posted fb 03/02/13

#2 Angels Amongst Us

They Say Angels walk amongst us

This we can never be sure

When we meet them

Something about their Swagger

Something about their flow

As Quickly as they arrive

Too soon they leave

Causing you heartache

and a certain kind of grief

One thing is certain

Of this you can be sure

When an Angel leaves

They leave you wanting more

In memory of my Mother

Mrs Constance Morris

(Aunty Connie)

Karma in Love

Karma in Love, what can I say don't mess with it, it is real.,,,,,

posted fb 17/05/13

#105 Put Things Straight

I am not saying you owe me

But you need to put things straight

I was your girlfriend

You treated me like your mate

You seem to think it doesn't matter

Trust me I can see the pattern

You need to make amends before it is too late

I am saying this not as an ex .

I am telling you as a friend

You need to beg forgiveness

Pray for recompense

You came into my life

Rode rough shot

Now you are the one

Burning in flames

Who knew hell was so hot !

Blackberry Abandoned

I left my HTC on a bus on Sunday at 08:00 by 12:00 someone finally decided to pick up and answer my frantic texts and many calls to the number. I collected my phone from to young women five miles away from the bus I had left the phone on. Now everyone says I was lucky.

Lets discuss this luck .

Firstly I left phone on bus

Then phone was found by someone . That was lucky

Person decided to take it home?

Ok no more luck

Not sure why they didn't answer my first call, no doubt deciding what to do. Well with a password and not the top of the range in HTC 's I guess their best bet was just to wait for me to phone for the 20th time answer then get me to take this burden off their hands.

Ok so testing all this luck everyone proclaimed I had I left my Blackberry curve on the train. To date no one has answered the phone. Whoever found it took the chip out immediately. It is on a Virgin Network good luck getting rid of that.

The worst thing all my half written poems were on there. I am hoping I will get some inspiration and they will come back to me. The poems not the phone. face it that's long gone....

Posted fb 16/05/13

#104 Blackberry Abandoned

I’ve lost my chai

I’ve lost my chi

I have lost my buddy

I am talking about my phone

No? No ordinary phone

Whenever I had a thought

It was there

Buttons at the ready

For me to commit my ideas

My dreams

I search high

I search low

Oh where did my friend go?

To think some other

Tips are on the buttons

Making a mockery

Of our special connection

I dial her

But I had to have her switched off

For her own protection

I hope she will understand

Find it within her Blackberry heart

To forgive me

For being so careless with one

So dear to me

Bad Trip

I was travelling on a bus on my way from work.  I saw a young man behaving so out of control so violent coupled with paranoia isn’t good.  It was scary.  Fortunately I big strong burly man physical intervened and managed to regain control on an otherwise out of control situation.

#103 Tripping

I don't know what I have taken

This is real I ain't faking

I have tripped to another zone

Another hemisphere

Which isn't here

Forgive me

for what I have

Or may have done

I don't know where I am

I have no idea where I am

Am I making a connection

I am out of the loop

Spaced out

In limbo