Thinking aloud

posted fb 30/01/14

#359 Thinking aloud

I am an African warrior

I fight as many battles as I can

I have been fighting all my life

since I left African land

I fight battles when I find them

As I walk these cold streets

I don’t understand their ways

I won’t concede defeat

I have been here all my life

there is a lot I still don’t know

I have too much pride

so I struggle on with no indication

that what I am doing isn’t right

I work hard

I’ve even got a  few degrees

try as I will

they still have much more than me

they have stability

this comes with owning land

I rent for too many years

scared to venture out of  their plans

there are times when I walk the streets

with fear in my heart

there is money to be made

I don’t know where to start

it is not as difficult as you think

as long as you have connections

the world is your oyster

we are the pearls

our naivety is precious

wherever we have been scattered

scattered around this world

we stay where we are put

without a definitive plan

all that is left

posted fb 30/01/14

#356 The remnants of us

I want everything to be perfect

As you left me

So perfectly

Empty

Missing

Without you

Everything polished pristine

And clean

Sterile sanitise

With no trace

Of you or me

They will uncover

The depth of us

Amongst all we have left

Then determine

They knew us

From the remnants

We left behind

In the beginning we are all the same

posted fb 30/01/14

#358 Searching for an end

I am searching for an end

to make my beginning make sense

somewhere along the way

I have lost my way

it was bright with so much ahead

now I am searching for an end

remember this

posted fb 30/01/14

#358 If I was

If I was rich

would you treat me the same

keep me back

suppress me

then give me the blame

if I was white

would you not see my pain

Shylock was the one who stated

yes we bleed the same

if I was young

would you question what I say

always doubt me

as if to me life was a game

if I was old

would you trust me

assume I had seize to exist

as you no longer see me

forever remember this

self reliant

posted fb 30/01/14

#360 I have remained tall

you disrupt my life

throw me off track

I want to move on

I know there is no going back

so much has been said

so much has been done

so hard to forgive

cannot trust anyone

when I needed support

no one was there

I had to do it on my own

so now everything is clear

this inner strength

is all that I have

it is the thing that has stayed with me

through thick and thin

when I have felt desperate

isolated

feeling all alone

I have kept on going

too far away from home

nothing familiar

nothing I can recall

I have been there for myself

I have remained tall